Gillian Makes Herself

"But if you really want to live, why not try and make yourself?" -Incubus

One more Travel WOD

Descending burpees and ascending sit ups. After the first round, I did half burpees (no chest to ground/push up), because my right arm apparently wants to be useless and cause me pain for any movement. 😑

10 minutes on the elliptical, then the WOD. 

Last night in Miami. So tan. So happy. It’s the little things. 


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Travel WOD: Miami Edition

First full day in Miami, and I figured I should do something after sitting on the beach for 3 and a half hours… 😎 #SorryNotSorry

  • 10 mins walking uphill on the treadmill
  • Air squat/kick workout from Instagram. Lol. 
  • 10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1 sit ups. Run 100 meters between each set. I couldn’t figure out how to make the dumb treadmill show distance, so I just did 1 minute running at 6 mph. 
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I don’t have to count calories anymore. 

I am currently on hour 4ish of a 6 hour flight from Philly to Phoenix, and I can’t force myself to sleep anymore. So, I decided to compose a long-over due update. 
Being completely honest-I stick to the meal plans I got from the registered dietitian from about Monday-Thursday. Things tend to fall apart on the weekends, but to me it is worth it. In general, I get full much faster these days anyway.  

I’ve been aiming to CrossFit 3x a week, which again, hasn’t been perfect, but I keep that number in mind and don’t get too down on myself if it doesn’t happen. I’ll pop over to inShape as well, depending on the day, mostly on a Saturday or on a day when I get out at 2 and the next CF class isn’t until 4:30. 

If you’ve hemmed and hawed about spending the money on a personal nutrition plan, let me tell you, it is totally worth it. Branden, the person I worked with to get my first month, really took the time to get to know me, my nutritional needs, my lifestyle, and my food preferences. It made me nervous at first, because when I looked at my plan, I thought there was no way this food would fill me up. I was totally wrong. On occasion, I made changes or added a small part of a meal over to a snack, because I just couldn’t finish it. I was already full. 
For me, I needed something easy and repetitive. It’s easier for me to boil eggs for a week, divide up some fruit, make salads, etc. I’ve also been cooking some very, very simple dishes for dinner, but they are also filling and delicious. 
When I talk about this with people, sometimes they ask me what I’m eating. An easy example is breakfast-I can have 2 whole hard boiled eggs or 3 whites, a small apple, 1/2 cup of blueberries, and 2 oz. of cheese. I don’t get tired of eating the same thing every day for a week, so I boil the eggs and separate out the fruit, and I’m good to go. 
I’m not going to post the full plan here because:

A. Spend the money on one yourself, you can’t have mine!

B. I can say almost positively that yours would look totally different than mine. 
The best part of this plan is that the calories are calculated already, SO I DON’T HAVE TO COUNT THEM. BEST. PART. 
Now that I’m mixing it up a bit, I know how many ounces of meat I should include with dinner, how much rice I should eat, etc. I can mix and match and, if I’m honest with myself, know that what I’m choosing to make fits in the plan. 
How do I know it’s working? A few things. 
-Since New Years Day, I am down 14 pounds. 
-Almost always, at CrossFit, the warm up made me a little dizzy and tired. Nothing major, and afterward, I was ready to do the strength and WOD portion of the class. Now, I have a lot more energy right at the beginning of class. I’m not really much faster-I’m just not a fast person to begin with. (For example, my senior year of high school I ran cross country. We worked out 6 days a week. Even then, I still have never run a 5K under 30 minutes.) 
-Then there are the progress pictures. It really does help you to see how you’re progressing. This is my latest one that I think shows it best. 

While I’m in California, I am hoping to work out at least a bit. There is a CrossFit in Santa Barbara that I would love to check out, but we’ll see what happens.

I’m ending this post while waiting to board my last flight to Santa Barbara!  Happy weekend!


New Year Update #1

I totally failed to write a post on the snow day. I was too busy watching SVU episodes and squatting. It wasn’t the toughest workout I’ve ever done, but at least I did something while I was stuck inside. The weekends have been horrible for eating clean, and the snow didn’t help. However…all that for another day. 
I can’t get over how much I love CrossFit. I’m still struggling to get there consistently, but it’s not because I don’t want to be there. You can knock it if you want, but you can’t deny that it works. I’m sure if you’re reading this, you also saw my squat and deadlift PRs I posted. Squatting 240 pounds was…awesome. Is there a word better than awesome? I remember when my one rep max was 175. Knowing how far I’ve come and how strong I’ve gotten helps when I’m feeling crappy about other aspects of my life. 
Monday was the PR day. Today, I stayed after school to do the cardio fix DVD from 21 Day Fix with some teachers. I really enjoyed doing it, and I think that may be my Tuesday workout as long as it keeps going. Cardio endurance has always been my weakness, so I feel the need to do a very cardio specific workout at least a day or two a week. That’s the goal, anyway. 
A, hopefully better, post is coming about my new eating habits. I was getting down on myself today because I ate so terribly over the weekend. However, going through old files on my hard drive, I came across this, and realize even with my bad days, I’ve come a long way…

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Coming Soon…

It’s been awhile (again), but with the threat of snow tomorrow, I’ll have plenty of time to blog about…

  • My new (and hopefully forever) nutrition plan
  • CrossFit
  • My dream of being a professional organizer (no joke)

Exciting, I know.  I miss blogging, and if this is going to be a thing that lots of people read, it’s also got to be a thing that I update fairly often.  Topic #1 for 2016 will be my nutrition, so I will see you guys tomorrow!

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I am…

One of the books I am juggling right now is Gretchen Rubin’s Better Than Before.  In the book she describes “The Four Tendencies,” which are meant to help the reader determine how they can best create and keep a new, good habit.  The Four Tendencies are:


I’m a sucker for quizzes, so I took it, and it confirmed what I believed to be true since I started reading the book.  I am most definitely an “Obliger.”  I will do nearly anything asked of me at work, or if other people ask me for a favor, there’s a fairly good chance I’ll say yes.  However, if I try to form a personal habit, especially when related to health and fitness, I almost always flop.

I have more reading to do before I figure out what I can do to help myself succeed, but I feel like it’s good to be self-aware if you truly want to make yourself better.

Besides, I’ll need some self-help as I motivate myself to take the GRE in the next year…but that’ll be for another post.

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“We are the music makers…”

I mean, I know I’m quite literally a music maker, but I was listening to my new favorite podcast, The Music Makers, when I was inspired to write this post.  I stumbled upon episode 010-Most People Won’t.

This particular episodes reiterates the fact that most people won’t…do anything.  Really, anything.  They won’t improve, create, build, etc.  The episodes are rather short and sweet, so I won’t go over it word for word in case you want to listen to it yourself.  The show’s host, Aaron Francis, reviews some bad and good points about this little fact of life, but one struck me as most important.

If you DO “do” whatever “thing” is in your head, you’ve already won.  This is where I struggle.  I say I don’t have time to blog, but, honestly, whenever I think about, I say…”I don’t have a following like some of the other blogs I read.  I don’t make money off this blog.  I don’t write as well as my boyfriend can.  It really doesn’t matter if I post today or not.

Same thing with the gym.  “I can’t RX any workouts, (a.k.a., do them exactly as written) at CrossFit ever.  I can’t do the strict pull-ups/handstand walk/muscle-ups, so if they’re in the workout, it doesn’t even matter if I skip.”

It made me thing of another blogger/author/speaker that I love dearly-Gretchen Rubin.  She has several “Secrets of Adulthood” that she writes about in her books.  One that she also talks about on her podcast, Happier With Gretchen Rubin, is:


I need, need, NEED to remember this.  The blog post I do write is much better than one I never post.  I won’t improve my writing if I don’t write.  Working out and modifying everything at CrossFit is better than not working out at all, and instead sitting in my room, alone, watching TV, and probably eating.

This won’t be easy.  I will not be perfect.  But I can try.  TGIF.

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Numbers. Numbers, everywhere.

I know it’s not just me, but numbers follow me everywhere.

17 minutes until homeroom starts.
Take attendance, are 28 kids here?
Count the eighth notes, 1+ 2+ 3+ 4+.
How many calories does MyFitnessPal say I should eat? 1770?  1830? 1250?
What time is my appointment? 4:15.
So I have 50 minutes to nap.
Try on the size 12 pants, too small.
Try on the size 14, okay.
Load up the barbell, squat clean 80 pounds.
3 rounds for time, 15 lateral burpees over bar, 7 squat cleans.
I want to go for a max snatch on Sunday, can I hit 100#?  Or 90?  Or 85?
My lowest weight in the past 5 or 6 years: 157.
My highest weight in the past 5 or 6 years: 190.  ish.  Maybe 195.  I didn’t really subject myself to the scale.
My weight now: 188?  186?  I haven’t checked since school started, I can’t worry about it right now.

I never experienced the whole, “I’m not losing weight but my clothes still fit” saga that I read about in other blogs.  I know I’ve gained weight, I know some of it is fat, but I know some of it HAS to be muscle.  I can wear a size 12 jeans at Old Navy, which run big anyway, but when I was at my biggest, I would wear a size 16 or 18 at the same store.  When I think of it that way-okay, great.  I’m not perfect, I have some things to fix, but it’s okay.

Then, like a light switch, I go from the positive to-OH MY GOD WHEN I WAS 188 I WAS A BEACHED WHALE. (**Disclaimer, because it’s the internet and everybody gets offended by everything-I’m saying this comment about ME SPECIFICALLY, not the weight in general.  188 looks and feels different on every person.**)

But…I know 188 now isn’t 188 from back then.  I;m still a smaller size at the same store.  My face doesn’t look as chunky in pictures.  The progress pictures I have from 2011 clearly show that I do not look the same now.

But it’s a total mind &*$%.

I’m trying not to let the numbers get me down.  I’m trying to eat healthier without counting calories, because it’s clearly not sustainable (for me). I’m trying to get to CrossFit at least 3 days a week, even when work makes me feel beat.  I’m going to be eating more raw foods.  Why not?  It’s easy, and tastes good.

Why did I bother with this post?  Because I didn’t really think gaining muscle and not seeing the scale change, or seeing the scale go up, was going to happen to me.  I didn’t really consider how hard it is to build muscle AND lose fat at the same time, at least for an average/below average CrossFitter.  I lift WAY MORE, as in frequency and number of pounds, than I ever have before.  I also weigh more than I have in the past 3 years.

I LOVE being able to front squat 205.  I love that I can clean and jerk 125.  I’m still an incredibly slow runner, but I can enter a 5 mile race and run it in an hour without any running training other than CrossFit.

I have a lot of work to do.  But I can’t forget about all the work I have done, and have the capacity to do. 

1 more day of school before the weekend.
4 day week next week.
1 piano lesson to teach tomorrow.
99 days til Christmas.
21-15-9 rep scheme for the WOD tomorrow.

I have to use the numbers to my advantage.  I can’t let them get me down.

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CrossFit, Podcasts, Coffee, and Books, aka, 1 Week and 2 Days left of Vacation

Trying to start up blogging again is probably not the best idea when school starts next week for me, but I suppose there’s no time like the present. A few things I’m obsessed with and hope to stick with going into the school year:

CrossFit: I’ve been going a solid 3 times a week at least, with an occasional workout at In Shape. There’s no reason I can’t get to BCF 3x a week when work starts, so that is my goal to start.

Podcasts: I like listening to them when I’m cleaning or laying out or something along those lines. Barbell Shrugged and Happier with Gretchen Rubin are two of my favorites…I know, quite a contrast, but I’m a girl with varied interests.

Coffee: I spend an insane amount of money at Starbucks, so today I spent more money at Starbucks, this time to buy coffee beans. I’m going to try to make cold brew at home every week to have when school starts, instead of going to Dunkin before work.

Books: I finished Fight Club and A Farewell To Arms, and am starting Tropic of Cancer by Henry Miller, all books that Jordan got me last Christmas. I’m also starting Better Than Before by Gretchen Rubin, and The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory.

I’m very thankful that it’s a nice day out. Hopefully I am back sooner rather than later.

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I’m on vacation this week, so that means…

5 rounds for time:
12 Hang power clean and jerks
9 Thrusters
6 Power snatches

RX 115/75
Masters 95/65
Scaled 75/45

I did this scaled in 21:34.

It was a gorgeous day today, so after a quick salad from Four Seasons…

I ran a mile around Foote Park while waiting for Ashley.  Once she got there…


I am definitely making use of the free time.  Now tomorrow, before I do any working out, I have to take care of a few errands…


Yeah.  I did that.

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